Lunchtime thoughts

In a world that is full of so much human conflict, where pride, ego and materialism rule the world, I have never been more aware of these attributes inside myself than I have been over the last couple months. Within each humans struggle, lies the unavoidable existence of sin. I am learning that it is only in recognizing that sin and realizing our total inability to control or change it, is where true freedom is found.

I've spent a lot of time trying to change who I am or control the sin in me and when I realize I am still the same I am defeated. My power on it's own craves goodness for about 2.5 seconds. It is then that the sin in me wins the battle and begins to feed itself on my own selfish desires. It is here that emptiness and sadness finds me. It is here where my dependence on God grows.

I have come to realize that I am an empty vessel without God. A moving body with no soul. No point. No purpose but to succumb to the pain and be caged inside myself forever. It is only in my surrender that I become alive and free. It is only in my dependance on Him where I become a part worth playing. It is only in giving God ALL the glory where my soul awakens and becomes more visible than my body.

As I look at my friends, family, colleagues and even the strangers I pass on the street, I see so much hurt, so much heartache, and I wonder if there is an chance for the world to be a better place.

My heart tells me YES. God's goodness is in the very air we breathe. But it is only when we, as individuals, recognize our overwhelmingl glaring need for Jesus Christ that we will begin to breathe His air.

When I surrender, I change. Now if only I can convince the world to do the same.