Our God is faithful

I have heard two people say this week how God had "given" them a scripture at one point or another in their walk. And I was thinking about that, and wondering if God had given me a scripture? And immediately, my answer was yes. I remember reading Ephesians 3:20 very early in my walk with Jesus and knowing without a doubt that it was true and that it would be true for me.

It says "Now to Him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to His power that is at work within us" I love that! IMMEASURABLY MORE than all we can ask or imagine...

Today, I stepped back and looked at my life and undoubtedly, God has done immeasurably more than I could have ever asked or even imagined!! Everything that has happened has been so beautifully orchestrated by God and it is so clear that I am right where He wants me... Here is the funny thing, I still I find time to complain and question the will of God.

One thing I know is this: God is faithful and He is good and every day I fall deeper in love with Him. One second without Him would be too long, and I will trust in His plan even if I dont understand it.

A lot of people have said how much courage I have to come here, to leave my life behind and walk into the unknown. I guess it would appear that way, but I honestly dont feel like it took any courage at all. I followed God here. This is where He wanted me, and I knew that so deep in my heart that nothing was going to stop me from coming.

His love

Psalm 63:3 says "Your unfailing love is better than life itself"

This verse is so very powerful to me. I think it is powerful because I have lived my life searching for meaning. I always knew life had a bigger purpose, and I always knew that I was made for something bigger, but I was always unwilling to accept the truth that Jesus died for me, and I was unwilling to surrender to His plan. I thought it was too narrow and I didnt want to walk away from my little shell of a life. I never realized that I was the one that was too narrow until I finally surrendered to His love. It was only then that I realized how abounding, glorious and worthwhile life really was... Little did I know that my life would begin the moment I accepted His love. Little did I know that He would bless me with "infinitely more than I would ever dare dream or hope or even ask for" (Eph 3:20)

I have been reading alot about the life of Jesus lately. The places He walked, preached, the people He spent time with, the people He healed, the people He condemned. The one thing that stands out through it all is His love for every single one of them. Even His enemies. He just loved them beyond any reason and beyond their own understanding. They all questioned Him, some even betrayed and rejected Him, but His love for them continued despite how they treated Him. This boggles me. How can a man, even God, love like that. How could He love the very people that were about to murder Him for no good reason? The people that believed Him, worshipped at His feet, and the people that denied Him, had Him murdered. Yet His love for them all was the same.

His love really is better than life, and it is my hope that all people will know this...

To be known.

It is so important for me to be known, to be understood. But it has never been something that I have ever been able to fully receive from another human being because I can be quite complex, complicated, and frustrating. The typical me wants to be close to someone, but as soon as they get too close, I push them far far away because I don't REALLY want anyone to know me.... Maybe it's fear that they wont love the real me if they knew who I was, maybe I am afraid they will leave me , whatever it is, it is a very real problem that has been there my whole life. It is something I am being made very clearly aware of as God is trying to give me a life. One that includes a myriad of people... And starting from scratch means no one KNOWS me and therefore NO ONE will understand me, so I feel very alone here much of the time.

This morning as I sat in church, I could only think of how desperate I was to just have a moment with God where there was nothing in the way. Not busyness, not confusion, not frustration, not work, not loneliness, not fear or doubt, just Him and me, my heart, that place so deep inside that only He can get to. I couldnt stop thinking of all that He has done for me, and how amazingly blessed I am and in that moment I was filled with emotion over the knowledge that I knew so deep down of how pure and real His love is for me. I melt in His presence because He is so huge, so magnificent, so wonderfully majestic, and at the same time, He is my Father and my very best Friend. I imagine I will spend the rest of my life totally lost and mystified by His love.

My desire is to be known. The truth is I AM known. Maybe not by you, or by the people that I interact with on a daily basis. But the One that knows me is the One that has my heart forever.

Love story

At this very moment, there is a magical love story being written between God and His church... We are the words in His story.

And no matter how far my heart tries to stray, my soul will be forever anchored in Jesus...