I cant describe the way I feel except un-everything. I am unexcited, undetermined, unenenergized and unmotivated. I am so tired all the time. All I want to do it sleep. I am turning 30 in 4 days, moving to australia in 42, starting a new job in 56 and running a half-marathon in 76. There is so much to be done. Training physically, preparing emotionally, and most importantly praying intently on all that is happening. I know this and yet I cannot find the energy to bring myself to my knees to seek Jesus, to ask for guidance and peace and all that is needed during this enormous change. I only have 42 days left before I have to say goodbye to the life I have known for 17 years. It is as though sleeping has become my therapy, my way to cope with the reality of what is happening. But I do not want to sleep through this. It is too good.
Romans 13:11
The hour has come for you to wake up from your slumber, because our salvation is nearer now than when we first believed.
Tonight, this is my prayer: Lord, please wake me up from my slumber and help me prepare for all You have placed before me. You have never given me more than I can handle. Help me to be spiritually alive and walk through this with your grace upon me. I love you.
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