"This isn't a holiday, it's a pilgrimage"
Those words so accurately describe what I am doing in Australia. This is not a holiday, it is a pilgrimage... to learn more and grow deeper in Christ. I have no idea what is in store for me over the next couple years, and at this very moment I wish I did. I do not like the uncertainty of everything right now. But it is what it is and this is all part of the growing experience. I cannot grow without change and change doesnt happen without pain. This morning was the first morning in months that I woke up with God's name on my lips. I have felt so very disconnected from Him in all the busyness of everything. But I know He has me. I know He will pull me through this and is right by my side in the midst of the loneliness. He has promised to never let me go and I am holding fast to that promise.
I am beginning to relate to one of my all time favorite movie charaters, Dorothy. We are very similar you know. A tornado came in, ripped me up out of the life I was living in and has dropped me in the land of Oz. I feel like I am at the very beginning of the yellow brick road where she discovers all the munchkins that live there. They are all the same, and she sticks out like a sore thumb. The difference between her and I is that I am not ready to click my heels home. Instead, I am ready to walk along the path to find my place, to accomplish all that God has for me here. Now if only I can get Him to send me 3 cute boys to help guide my way. Preferably not wearing costumes..... :)
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